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[project2501]

i miss you so much, tonight. i miss every one of you. and when i close my eyes, almost, i can reach out, i can feel you there, far away. whether you are in Albuquerque or Oregon or San Francisco or Dublin or just down on 30th street. living your life, day by day, without me. you kiss her good morning. you go to the shops. you dance in the black light. you fall asleep early. you chop wood for your fire. you tie back your hair.

and afterward, you all go to coffee, and everyone laughs at your jokes.

and you've changed, you've changed. you've cut your hair, you've grown a beard, you've changed your style, you've changed your walk. you're older now -- we're both older, now. but i -- i would still know you, if i saw you tomorrow. i would still know you if we passed on the street. you are in all my stories. you are in all the songs. i could never forget you, scattered fragments of my heart.

but have i changed the smallest thing? is anything different at all? a half-remembered fragment, like a trap -- the smell of shampoo, a familiar turn of phrase, a stranger's gesture? the slightest pull, like gravity? when you close your eyes, can you feel me, too?

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[http://users.livejournal.com/_wirehead_/]

...*tugs* ^_~

do you think we're all more connected now than we used to be? or is it just another medium (like BBSes) from which we will all eventually lose touch?

[dream-logic.livejournal.com]

i don't know. optimistically, yes, we're more heavily connected. there's obviously new connections, new threads, new dynamics... but at the same time there is a conservation-of-connectivity law being invoked: i think (a) people in general are too shallow of thought to communicate well; online presence lays bare that flaw, hence the high amount of online drama and (b) you watch something like fox news network (or any other cynicism-inducing activity) for an hour or so and you can't help feeling that segments of humanity are just becoming more stupid or evil than is imaginable (mostly the former) - like some cosmic racial karma evening things back out.

*sigh*

also, i think the biggest problem with BBSs was just that there wasn't a large enough variety in people online to actually consider it a viable population. i've been a member of communities of gamers, geeks, scifi, science folks, etc... but they were generally focused, intense, and/or dedicated. so relationships - the threads - were ... i don't know, like IR is to the visible spectrum: we see it with special equipment, but we don't see the rainbow of flavors like we do with something like livejournal.

yikes. mixed metaphors that include skittles + lj entries that start sounding like social anthropology papers = time to get some sleep.

*g'night*